Damit!

Damnit! I've always dread thinking about my future. It's a ques that bothers mum whenever she asks because I don't have the answer. Well, too bad for her and me! Because I dislike thinking about it! It's easy for me to list down the occupations that i have in mind. Doctor..forensic toxicologist.. paramedic..pharmacist..yeah, i'm so undecided the list will include everything! Janitor larrrhh...why not? It's important also ok.

I do that all the time, and then something at the back of my head always tells me.
"Shut up already...which one do YOU want to be?" Meh.. that's when the research part has to come in. And I dread that so much. I need to go on the computer and search and learn about all these darn occupations.

It's time consuming! Plus, I don't have patience for this kind of stuff! And the worst thing is, after all that, I still don't know what I want. I can continue with the rants all day long. But, it never occurred to me that this boring stuff is luxury. What? I realized this when I was chatting with a friend. Thank you for smacking the reality in my face. I was so shallow!

The freedom to choose. There are many individuals out there who are declined this option. They are forced into doing what they are told to. And there is no escaping because they lack knowledge about their rights or they lack the funds to pursue their dream or whatever million other reasons people may have la.

I still DREAD this whole dumb process of thinking about the future, but somewhere inside of me, I know it's a privilege that not all are given.


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